Holiday Countdown....

So it's holiday time...

"Here in an instance, gone in a flash" ~Jack Skelington

So it seems...

So here is the recap of my holidays so far....

Friday Decemeber 17...

After writing my last exam (english), I headed home only to rush to Mayfeild to see my friends and Caley. After exchanging gifts and hanging out I drove Caley home and headed to Nates house in Buffalo. There we played Halo 2 and deuled, and at about 11:30 at night we were sent out to find cream for our parents coffee.

Saturday Decemeber 18...

Waking up all night from Alarm clocks in Nates room we went back to playing video games, and then as a huge family we all went to the movies. Me and Nate saw Oceans Twelve and though it sucked. Then we headed back to his house where we ate pizza and Dueled with Adam and played Halo 2 online.

Sunday December 19...

Waking up eairly becasue someone forgot to close a window, I nearly freezed to death. I got up around 9 and went to church at 10. Going back to Nates we moves the TV and Xbox to his sisters room because his borther playes the drums so damn loud, and it's not even music. IT JUST NOISE!!! We got home around 11 and stayed up lazing around until 2.

Monday December 20...

Caley came over and we hung out together. We watched the second Dragon Heart movie before I had to take her home. Other than that I can not remember for the life of me what I did. -_-;;

Tueday December 21...

Me, Adam, and Jaclyn were home and we shoveled the drive way and cleaned. I went to the Dentist and later I went out shopping for last minute gift for my family. I used the gift certificate Noelle got me to buy a manga called Hellsing, and when I got home I wrapped my gifts.

Wensday December 22...

Got up and went to my mom's work where I loaded the van full of fire wood. At lunch time we went to the work lunch at the Mandarin and quickly drove back to Brampton to see the Phantom of the Opera movie. It was awesome. As we speak I am trying to get Kazaa to connect so I can try and download it. Then I went to Caley's house and went to watch her soccer game. So far it has been a non stop holiday!

Just thinking...for good or bad...

Here I am again..

Typing away at my computer...

I have tried so hard to change. But I can feel it deep down inside of me, eating away. Perhaps it's the stress, or the let down that in some area's I have failed.
I try hard in school, but I know it was never hard enough. Just sometimes I just can't seem to win.

I just check my marks in one of my coarses, it is called Systems.
It was only a half a year coarse, but we had 3 assignments pluas and exam that were each worth alot. The final verdict is quite simple, if I get 50% on the exam I will end up with a 52% final mark. If I get 100% on the exam I will end up with a 72% mark. Ya....

So you can guess that it is a little depressing. My final project was worth 30% of my final, and my group got 42%. I put so much effort in to that and still I failed miserably. Now I have to write another exam tomorrow, which is only woth 10%, but I have no idea what I am studying. There are like 300 pages and none of them give me direct information. *sigh*

As I sit at my desk, there it is....that little spark of hatred...
The stress is gettig to me...and I wish I was back in high school where this week would be the easiest thing in the world for me. My music only drives me to want what I can not have.

It's ticking again...

The clock in my mind...

Counting down always...

I just want to let go and go bac to being depressed and miserable, think how easy and worthless it would be. Blaming the world for my problems. HA! What loser does that? This is my fate and I will raise up my shield and defend myself for what ever hell this world desires to cast me into.

Wanna know what I dream about?
Do you really wanna know?

I close my eyes and enter the depths of my mind.

I'm laying on a soft bed, in a dimly lit room. A fire place gives of most of the light and heat in the room, as I hear the creacks of the flames dancing acorss the wood. This house, this place is far away from everything. It is here I am bound to live, here I am bound to my happiness. As I slowly open my eyes a soft hand touches my head, their fingers running acorss my hair, scratching my head. A small tear escapes my eyes. The one thing I can not get enough of is affection, and I move my head closer to their hand. I close my eyes completely content..

This is my mind...

For as twisted as it may get, I assoicate my love for someone with devotion...

Well I survive, thanks to friends and my music..

"I will impersonate a man,
His name, Alan Sotehana...
A country gentalmen no longer young,

Being retried he has much time for books,
He studies them from morn to night..
And often through the morn and night again...

All he reads oppresses him,
Fills him with igdignation,
of mans muderous ways towards man...

He ponders the problem...

How to make better a world where
Evil brings profit
And virture non at all...

He lays down the mel conning burdon of Sanity..
And conceives of the strangest project ever imagined...

To be come a knight erand.

To sally forth to roam the world,
In search of adventure...
To right all wrongs...
To mount a crusade...
To raise up the weak and those in need...

No longer will be playing Alan Sotehana

But a dauntless knight known as
DON QUIJOTE OF LA MANCHA!!!"

I'm looking for Christmas...

Twelve days and counting....yesh...

What I am going to do?

Me and chirstmas have a love hate relationship.

On the one had it is a great time of year, and I love getting time off from school, spending time with family an friends, and relaxing.

On the other hand I know as each day ends Christmas comes closer, and when it's here I will blink and it will be gone. There is a song and it goes something along the lines of:

"I'm as slow as Christmas, I got up before the dawn..
Up so fast I missed it, or is that old saying wrong.."

However right now that is not the only thing on my mind. I've only got 12 more days to get gifts for my family, 5 more days to find gifts for my friends, I have 3 exams, and stress is all around killing me slowly..*sigh*

How do you spell toast?
J-O-N-A-T-H-A-N

Well we will see.

I have been playing some GBA games I downloaded, (I figure Nintendo owes me from years of being a fan) so I don't usually buy GBA games. The games of this weekend have been Gundam Seed Destiny, an awesome Gundam game, tons of moble suits, and the other one Adam has been playing (I just cheated so see all the cool ghost) Shaman King.

Here is an animation I made of Yoh using his spirit Amidamaru and fusing him with his Antiquity.



Well Saturday I spent with Caley, we hung out and cuddled. Later we went skating, and also to a party with people from Tyson's soccer team. I had a great time being with her. And I didn't fall once! Although I think I only skated around the rink a total of like 3 times. ^-^;;;

Sunday I spent studying, then I relaized I needed a textbook I forgot in Res. So back I drove, getting lost on my way there and the way back took me forever. The rain, snow and traffic were murder. Finally my family went out together to see the movie national treasure. It was a great movie.

*yawn*

Well I'm off to bed, tommorow I am home alone and will be studying hard for my exam of Tuesday. Talk to you later.

I'm still here....

Well look at the date..

It's December 7th and with 4 exams I have done it. I have survived one semester of Univeristy. Yup..I'm not crazy, I haven't committed suicide, and I am not failing any coarses. WOOT!

Now you might be wondering what kept me alive all this time, and what got me through the first half of the year. Well it was most likely my girlfriend Caley, Jenn's late night calls, and my parents. Yup, good times. Now I am preparing for exams. *Cries* I have 4! WHAT AM I GONNA DO!?!?!

heh...

If there is one thing I have learned it's that no matter how bad things look, as long as I don't give up I will always survive in the end. So I will study hard, and I will go into the exam and do my very best. I love Lord of the Rings! (Sorry I am watching it right now...^-^;;) . Well I must be go...

Back...
TO THE FUTURE.....

and remember

ALF IS BACK!

Final Fantasy...

Ok folks here I go...
Time to crack my nuckles, get comfortable in my chair becasue I am about to go on a rant about:




FINAL FANTASY

Well it all started one fateful day when I visited my cousins in New York. Not the city but the state. They lived on lake Erie, and we would visit every once in a while. My cousin was playing FF7, and showed me the very first summons I had ever seen, Bahamut and Knights of the Rounds. And after seeing Sephiroth I had to have it. So I started my quest, to play final fantasy games. I love these games. Such intracate woven plots, twist, secrets, and AWESOME BOSSES!!! Like come on...

When I think a new final fantasy game the first thing I think of is how incredible the boss will be. I love em all, from Kefka to Vegnegun. They come in all shapes and size. From the human sized Sepheroth, to Neo X-death, and Sin. Sometimes the bosses are secret, or perhaps out in the open. But in each game when you start fighting is never what it end up being. The two largest bosses came from Final Fantasy X and X-2. The first is Sin, the ultamite summons created to desotry all machines in the world in spira. He lives and is defeated and is reborn ten years later in an endless cycle. Nothing but the hero's of our story could stand against him. The second is Vegnegun. A mechanical monster created to destroy the summoners. However it was never activated to battle sin. Later a wandering sprit who wants vengence on the world who killed the person he loved revives the machine. It is activated using a organ.

But they are not the only great bosses of the Final Fantasy series. But a hero could never defeat the Omnipotent force that threatens the existance of life on earth with out help form his summon spirits.

Through Final fantasy 1 through 12 each hero has been able to call such creatures as Bahamut, Odin, Ragnarok and Anima. There are over 25 different summons, each one with the power to aid the heros in their quest. They are usually ancient creatues who allow the heros to tap into their power and unleash it upon their enemies. One of the greatest summons is knights of the round. A summon where Cloud Strife calls upon the power of King Arthur and the knights of the round table. There are so many awesome ones, and with each game they look better and better. (The pic below is of Altima from FFTA but is redon in FFXII)

These games are the best. They allow me to escape my stress ridden world of reality and enter a world where I can be a hero. Someone who can save the world from a great devistating evil. These games are awesome. And once the completion of Final Fantasy 12 has finished it is rumoured that the series will come to it's end. However I look forward to their new project...

...Kingdom Hearts...

Lot 666....

Lot 666 then...
A chandleiere in peices...

Some of you may recal the strange affair of the,
Phantom of the Opera,
A mystery never fuller explained...

We are told ladies and gentelmen,
That this is the very chanadlere which figures in the famous disaster...

Our work shops have repaired it,
And wire the parts of it for the new electric lights,
so we may get a hint of how it may look when reaswmbled...

Perhaps we may frighten away the ghost of so many years ago...
With a little illumination...

Gentalmen....

Only 21 more days till the Phantom of the Opera hits theaters...and I will be the first in line. Well most likely not, but I will be seeing it opening day. I keep watching the trailer over and over again, that and the stress of school are driving me nuts. I can't wait for it to come out!!!


Sing for me my angel of music....sing...